The sun was pretty blinding as I drove home from work today, listening to sad love songs to drown myself even more in sorrow. Promises after another... only to be broken in the end.

Trust can be hard to rebuild even tho I understand my inability to trust right now. People who have hurt us had a choice and took steps that they knew would be emotionally hurtful to us and destructive to the relationship. Right now they do not deserve our trust. That will have to be earned back. If they are sincerely remorseful and willing to work at it, they can help us rebuild the lost trust. It won’t happen over-night but is it really possible?

Intuition is a valuable tool. It can lead you to the core of a problem and show you the way. Intuition is within you, you feel it in the pit of your stomach. You can learn to recognize and develop your intuition by listening to your inner voice.

WOW! I just can't believe how long it's been since I last wrote here, it feels like forever. Though I've been wanting to write and do my usual vent every now and then, I guess I got pre-occupied this year with a lot of things... mostly good. That's why I'm so grateful for all the blessings I've been receiving since the last time I was writing sad blogs. I can honestly say that I've made a lot of progress for myself *pat in the back*  Even though I'm not that sad person I used to be, I ofcourse still have my moments but atleast its not as bad as before.

Anyhow, I don't know where to start but I'll try to recall details that started my 2009 amd make it fit here! LOL!  

An unexpected turn of events has happened. I'm no longer by Myself... I was lost and now I'm found, it's the most wonderful feeling in the world!!!

Am I really using the "L" word here? haha! Who would've thought that someone will come knocking on my door again at the least expected moment. I'm glad that the past remains in the past. I can now concentrate on how to "live in the moment" and not to fear the future.

 Out with the OLD and in with the NEW!!!

Here's some break down on the beginning of 2009:

I finally re-connected with old friends from grade school in Manila... Harold & Gen D. OMG! how time flew by so fast! I remember when we used to just hang out and play at the playground at school. Those were the days when we didnt care of the troubles of the world.... sooo innocent haha!

As I can recall before 2008 even ended, I promised myself that I would start reconnecting with people of whom I lost in touch with because let's admit it... we won't be here in the present w/o the people from our past. You just need to choose which ones matters the most. That being said, it also includes people you've hurt and you need some apologizing and making up to do.

@ Edison w/ Sachi

And what about friends whom you haven't forgotten and seemed to have forgotten you? is there a time frame for waiting until they remember you and the good/bad times you've shared? I wanna know

Ofcourse, one of the highlights of these year for me is my b-day. Oh-I meant OUR bday meaning I shared it w/ my beau since his b-day is the day after mine. New and old faces... Fun times!

I know how rare it is to get a second chance at things, I'm blessed! so many things I wanna share yet so lil time to write. Until then... I will continue the journey. Hopefully, it won't take me 5 months again before I write another blog. Ciao for now!

Countless attempts to put myself to sleep tonight... just can't close my eyes. My mind wandering... thinking... my heart pounding. Isn't amazing how one decision can turn your life around? be it good or bad.  Cliche' for saying this but I know that "life is what we make it" be it miserable or happy .

I guess what I'm trying to say is... today I had a BIG decision to make and I feel like another one is coming up pretty soon. But since I'm a pisces in Zodiac sign, I am emotional which means I tend to decide w/ the heart instead of the head and when that happens I'm doomed! lol!

Ahhhh! life is full of decision-making and the more you get older the more responsibilities & choices you have to make... cant help but to wish sometimes that I'm just a kid again   Psych! *knock on the wood* (remember that Tom Hanks movie "BIG"? only I'm the opposite cuz the kid in that movie wished he's already an adult).

Since I'm talking about age, responsibilities and decision making... could it be a possible sign of "mid life crisis?" Nope, dont answer that Lol!

Eniwhooo, I feel sooo blessed w/ countless chances to recover from a lot of things. One of the things that I will try hard not to encounter along the way are "distractions" (kaka & ripo, u guys know what I mean). I hope I'm strong enough now to resist and just really draw the line.

 Photos and more updates coming up soon...